My second game without you

Today, I went to the Dolphins game today, my second game without her.  She came with me on December 5th, which was a very sad day for me.  She would be leaving two Sundays from then and we talked about it.  I became emotional and she asked me not to.  She also asked me not to fall apart on the Saturday we would last see each other.  I was glad today was the last home game we had because I would not have to deal going to the game without her.  I looked at GATE 6, that is where she would be dropped off and would walk towards where I would be.  I looked at GATE 6 and would see her walking through the entrance towards me.  The game was boring and we lost, but I think it would have been more bearable had she been there.  Today reminded me again how lonely I am without her and wonder if she too feels the same way.  She tells me she misses me and she loves me and she also told me she gets all caught up with everything around her while she is home.  I want to believe her but wonder if is really true.  If she truly loves me, she would make it a point to reach out to me.  Maybe she just cares for me but is not in love with me.  I miss her and love her and want to see her.  My heart longs for her.  I act like she was my girlfriend, and even though we went out alot, we were nothing more than maintain a platonic relationship.  does she love me?  Does she need me?  Does she miss me?  I hope so.