Sometimes I wonder

Today is January 6 (you can obviously tell, if you have been paying attention to the way BLOGs work).

I have not been on here for several days.  I think of her every single day, thinking of her, missing her, wishing I would be with her...but sometimes I wonder does she think the same of me.  Does she miss me?    Does she need me?  Or does she fight thinking of me?  Does she fight the feelings she has so she can remain obedient?  I want to give her the time she wants, but sometimes she makes it very difficult.  She goes on hours without saying a single thing to me.  Other times, I mention I love her (in many different ways) and she just shuts down.  She disappears and does not respond until hours later.  It makes me question if she loves me or not.  I think this has made me begin to pull away.  Not really, but I then do not say anything to her.  I don't call her or text her, just the same way she does to me.  She has made notice of that on occassion, and of course, probably has made notice of it on other occassions and has not shared with me.

But the rebellious side of me says the heck with it.  I love her and I'm gonna stick around.  My gut feeling says to stick around.

I love her.